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FUCK DAMNIT what the fucking, bloody, screwed-up hell do you want from me!
Shut up.
Shut up.
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peinture parfaite;
29 November 2009 @ 10:15 pm
26 November 2009 @ 02:48 am
And she's moving, while her previous self is going to be demolished in a few months, weeks, days time?
( a declaration of love )( Read more... )
And though I sound like I'm composing a testament on my deathbed (touch wood!), every word here is, honest-to-God, true.
Though I must say that listening to emo songs while typing this most probably contributed majorly to the excessive amount of dramatism here.
And posting less often has definitely robbed me of the ability to type fast, I daresay I can hardly clear 50 wpm on Facebook.
Sucks to be sick, I wish I could have gone back.
Rewatching certain Taiwanese soap idol dramas has, no doubt, rekindled my old love for cheesy, corny, and occasionally rather poorly delivered lines. Not like I can do a better job, but still.
And rewatching certain Taiwanese soap idol dramas has, very successfully, caused me major withdrawal symptoms.
Which reminds me of my embarrassing self in Sec 1.
And which brings me back to the wonderful time spent in SN.
SN, I Love You.
i feel: 
melancholy
melancholy09 November 2009 @ 10:16 pm
Now what. You insult my intelligence, fine. You trample all over my pride, fine. But now you have to insult my school, my cca and my friends! The joy of it all, isn't it?
"When your brother is old enough to go to JC, I will never ever let him enter your school, let me tell you that."
Oh yeah? FINE THEN don't let him enter my school. Since it's too lousy for you, and since you don't want your son to follow in your lousy, stupid, brainless daughter's footsteps. GO ENROL HIM SOMEWHERE ELSE.
"Choir won't bring you anywhere, it won't give you a place in university. I'd rather you quit!"
Oh and since when did life become something so monotone? Depriving people of doing the things they like to do so much, yeah that's the way we should go in life. Follow the standard routine, lead an absolutely boring life. That's really appealing.
And about the person you keep on telling me about, the person you keep heaping praises on? I'm not sorry to burst your happy bubble, but her life's like a business transaction, if you ask me. If she's associating herself with those people simply because she wants to use them to propel herself in society in the future, then there's much to be considered about her morals. Using people for her own good? HA PLEASE I HATE THIS TYPE OF PEOPLE. And if you want me to follow in her footsteps, I jolly well won't.
"When your brother is old enough to go to JC, I will never ever let him enter your school, let me tell you that."
Oh yeah? FINE THEN don't let him enter my school. Since it's too lousy for you, and since you don't want your son to follow in your lousy, stupid, brainless daughter's footsteps. GO ENROL HIM SOMEWHERE ELSE.
"Choir won't bring you anywhere, it won't give you a place in university. I'd rather you quit!"
Oh and since when did life become something so monotone? Depriving people of doing the things they like to do so much, yeah that's the way we should go in life. Follow the standard routine, lead an absolutely boring life. That's really appealing.
And about the person you keep on telling me about, the person you keep heaping praises on? I'm not sorry to burst your happy bubble, but her life's like a business transaction, if you ask me. If she's associating herself with those people simply because she wants to use them to propel herself in society in the future, then there's much to be considered about her morals. Using people for her own good? HA PLEASE I HATE THIS TYPE OF PEOPLE. And if you want me to follow in her footsteps, I jolly well won't.
i feel: 
bitchy
bitchy08 November 2009 @ 06:43 pm
I am just so, so, so tired of everything happening now in life. Just when things seem to be going along smoothly, something just has to happen, along with unbidden emotions.
I swear, life's a clown, and it's making a joke out of me.
So currently the only thing that's keeping me alive are my friends and the choir trip and Gossip Girl. And once the trip is over and I finish watching current episodes of Gossip Girl, everything negative is just going to come back in full force. And honestly, as much as I wish to deny this whole thing, I deserve it.
So yeah, you think your life's cool. I'm cool with that, as long as you don't do or say anything that will just infuriate me furthur. But then again, I don't think you've ever been a person who likes to go by the rules, so.
i feel: cranky
crankymusic at the moment: Last Train Home - Lostprophets
07 November 2009 @ 11:10 pm
07 November 2009 @ 07:48 pm
CHRISTMAS AND PYJAMAS NIGHT TWO WEEKS LATER, BRILLIANT. :D
It's gonna be an exciting trip!
i feel: 
cheerful
cheerfulmusic at the moment: Secret - The Pierces
05 November 2009 @ 09:13 pm
This. For everything that's happening to them now.
i feel: 
annoyed
annoyedmusic at the moment: been so long - Jaejoong and Yoochun from Tohoshinki
30 October 2009 @ 12:12 am
No you know what. Enough is enough. Seriously, I don't know why I even bothered to believe you in the first place. And yeah, thinking back, it was a stupid statement, so stupid I can't help but laugh at how gullible I was, and still am.
You find it funny, do you?
I don't.
You find it funny, do you?
I don't.
27 October 2009 @ 09:15 pm
27 October 2009 @ 07:02 pm
Haha very clever, Jolene. You should have known better. Rather than listening to her and believing all she said, you should have just dismissed it all. Now you're paying the price, honestly, you're clever, you.
Very clever.
Very clever.
i feel: shit.
music at the moment: Try - Asher Book
25 October 2009 @ 11:27 pm
It's hard to get started on one thing, not to mention to even be able to concentrate on said thing, when there're things that're just nagging at you, like the glasses of Butterbeer that just keep "banging the Dursleys on their heads".
Think the quote's not exactly correct, but point is, Harry Potter is getting too much to me. Rewatching HP movies and taking note of CG people during the Quidditch games and realising that the female Slytherin keeper in SS is not real but is in fact CG and comparing the subtle differences in Harry's wand and wondering how Emma Watson in POA still looks distinctly like the adorable girl in SS in terms of eyes and face shape, shucks, JK Rowling, you're not supposed to get me addicted to the series again, not when I have so many things to do?
Oh, and I have to say, the idea of Quidditch is just ingenious.
Deathly Hallows, please come soon.
i feel: 
giddy
giddy24 October 2009 @ 11:05 pm
You are, in a word that sums up everything, magical.
Thank you so much, for making my day today worthwhile.
<3
Thank you so much, for making my day today worthwhile.
<3
i feel: 
content
content20 October 2009 @ 11:08 pm
I am Lion, hear me roar Jolene, wait for me to sleep.
Ah sleepy papayas.
Ah sleepy papayas.
i feel: 
sleepy
sleepy19 October 2009 @ 11:14 pm
Numb. says:
We've got your back
1111: I wish things (like PW & R-paper) will turn out alright for Jolene
I love you, Mrs Torres.
i feel: 
loved
lovedmusic at the moment: Obsess (중동...) - SS501
19 October 2009 @ 05:43 pm
19 October 2009 @ 05:25 pm
Yeah it's good if you have a good analytical brain for academics, subjects like Literature would be a total breeze. But it sucks when the brain goes into overdrive and thinks excessively about things that shouldn't warrant so much attention. Because it'll just cause so much misery and pain.
( colorgenics )
( colorgenics )
Does the world need justification to the above? Because if they do, I'm the best source, I've been crying so much and having mood swings nowadays, I think I'm insane.
The first statement in the last paragraph is wrong, though. I don't "don't particularly like yourself (myself)", I absolutely DETEST myself, with a passion so strong at the moment, the smartest thing to do now is to continue to chip away at my self-esteem.
Go on, guys.
i feel: I dare you to tell me.
17 October 2009 @ 09:55 pm
Games Day with Victoria Chorale at ECP today was fun ttm yay, lots of running and noise and getting wet and sand and all. Got scratched by Jian Hao by accident while we were playing captain's ball, now there's this shiny red welt-like thingy on my knuckle, but HAHA what's new right. (:
My group lost in the end, btw, so we had to suffer our punishment of going into the sea completely, then rolling onto the sand while being wet and all. Though we didn't roll in the end, we just lay on the sand and let the others throw sand over us. Though Eunice helped loads by stuffing sand into my shirt, hahaha very good. :D
Then the rest of the guys started throwing/shoving/tackling each other into the sea; the girls just stood by one side and laughed at them behaving like little kids. Though all of them refused to let me touch them. ): Unglam much, but haha it's the fun that matters, so there!
Seniors are a really fun bunch of people, talented and successful too, woah I'm envious. :D
Sunburnt on the face especially, my cheeks are stinging a bit, let's just hope I don't start peeling.
My group lost in the end, btw, so we had to suffer our punishment of going into the sea completely, then rolling onto the sand while being wet and all. Though we didn't roll in the end, we just lay on the sand and let the others throw sand over us. Though Eunice helped loads by stuffing sand into my shirt, hahaha very good. :D
Then the rest of the guys started throwing/shoving/tackling each other into the sea; the girls just stood by one side and laughed at them behaving like little kids. Though all of them refused to let me touch them. ): Unglam much, but haha it's the fun that matters, so there!
Seniors are a really fun bunch of people, talented and successful too, woah I'm envious. :D
Sunburnt on the face especially, my cheeks are stinging a bit, let's just hope I don't start peeling.
i feel: chipper
chippermusic at the moment: Poker Face - Lady Collection
17 October 2009 @ 12:29 am
With the exception of GP, full promo results for all subjects came back today. 4 S-es, 4 R-papers, with suspension from choir being possible, and the taboo possibility of retaining even after the R-papers. But no, I'm not going to let myself retain, no matter what it takes.
( she just needs someone to take her home; )
It sucks to be me, I hate all this. Most of all, I hate myself, for taking 2009 for granted. For playing too much, not focusing when I need to. For shrugging things off when they're not in the best light. For telling myself that there's "always tomorrow to study, so just rest today". For letting all this happen, and having to face the consequences. For disappointing the people who put their faith in me: my parents, my teachers, my friends, and my grandmother, who always asked after me everytime I reached home from school after a paper.
I'm truly sorry.
( she just needs someone to take her home; )
It sucks to be me, I hate all this. Most of all, I hate myself, for taking 2009 for granted. For playing too much, not focusing when I need to. For shrugging things off when they're not in the best light. For telling myself that there's "always tomorrow to study, so just rest today". For letting all this happen, and having to face the consequences. For disappointing the people who put their faith in me: my parents, my teachers, my friends, and my grandmother, who always asked after me everytime I reached home from school after a paper.
I'm truly sorry.
i feel: sad
sadmusic at the moment: Umbridge Spoils A Beautiful Morning - Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix